I don't feel quite right saying, "Here are my before pictures." The truth is, this is what I look like now. This is me. This is what I don't see until I have a picture taken and realize what I truly do look like. This is my mess to clean up. This is me steeping out into the world and saying, "Heck ya, I know I am fat. I am trying to change that!" These are my current pictures. I am a size 18/20 pant. I wear a XXL shirt. This is me.