This is not just a journey that I am embarking on. It is the biggest baddest fastest roller coaster I have ever been on! There is no get off point either. I got on. I plan on riding it until I am the healthiest person I can be.
Yesterday I was tested. Everything seemed to be on my nerves, including myself. I was tired and feeling a lot of emotions. I had no interest in working out, counting points, or being awake! Thankfully, I had a great friend who talked me through my urge to binge on whatever I could get my hands on. She helped me plan my dinner and dessert for the evening. Thanks "A." I wish I could say that kept my roller coaster on track, but it did not!
Before I knew it, I was at Target, for some much needed mommy away time, standing in the candy aisle. I don't exactly know what I was doing there. I wasn't planning on buying candy. I don't think I even wanted candy. I was standing there though. Breathing in the sweet smells of chocolate, licorice, and peanut butter! OY! Just when I needed to be shaken out of the sugar smell coma, my phone rang. It was another WW friend calling to check in.
I answered the phone laughing. Busted again! HAHA I confessed my placement in the store to her and turned my cart right around. Second loop of the roller coaster was a success! Thanks "J."
I headed over to the magazine rack and decided to reward my behavior with something a little more positive; A Weight Watchers Magazine. It took me a while to go through all of them, because it looked like there were none left. As I was just about to give up, I moved a Cooking Light Magazine and there it was. Jennifer Hudson staring at me from the cover of the magazine. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh. Of course I grabbed it and was on my way out of Target! I didn't even grab a much thought about Starbucks coffee.
On the way home, I just drove. I did not listen to music or talk on the phone. I just enjoyed the silence. It was exactly what I needed. My reset button was pushed and I felt like I was ready to get back on the roller coaster of life. Sometimes I forget to take care of me and in the end everyone pays for it! Sorry family and friends!
In the end, I stayed on plan. I counted my points. I survived. I hate days like yesterday. I wish I never had them, but that just isn't life. We all need to break once in a while. At least that is what I am telling myself today.