Okay, really, how pathetic is this!? My last post was 1 year ago. There is a reason that Coley and I didn't continue our journey together in the past year, but she can cover that. ;)
A year in review, quickly, found me working outside the home for the first time since before DH joined the Coast Guard. I joined the worship team at church in the past few months, and have really been finding my way spiritually. I did lose about 20 pounds, and according to Coley, I look like half the size I was last year. I don't see that, but I am proud of myself for losing.
Here's my look forward to this year. I think it's interesting that we named the blog "Why Weight?" At first I thought of it like, why are we waiting to lose this weight? Why are we allowing ourselves to be overweight and unhealthy? I have a much deeper view of "Why Weight?" this year. In all the things in my life, why does weight hold such a huge place? My obsession with being unhappy with my physical appearance takes more room in my life than it should, and as a result other areas of my life are losing out on my attention. I have two sons - they're more important than being unhappy with my lumpy belly. I have a husband who stands by my side and has been married to be for almost 12 years. He doesn't obsess about my lumpy belly!
I am making some real changes in my life all together. I am on Weight Watchers, but it's not about the numbers. I am honestly more concerned with my health. I am focused on my spiritual walk with God. I have accepted the challenge from my pastor to read the Bible in a year. (We are using YouVersion as a free tool for this - check them out!)
I'm not making the traditional resolutions this year. I'm not giving up sugar, becoming vegan, avoiding junk food, or any of that. I am resolved to be satisfied with who I am where I am. I am resolved to seek God in my life every day and seek His guidance and grace. I am resolved to treat my body well, and be proud of who I am. In the process, I do seek to lose weight, but not for a number. I am on so many medications right now because of my pain level. I know that if my body is in good shape physically, my pain levels should reduce.
I hope that people that know me see a change in my mindset - a paradigm shift. I have been on a weight loss journey off and on for 4 years, sharing online. Right now I'm on a different kind of journey. Why weight? Why not life? Why not love? Why not health and happiness? God has all those things for me. I just have to make the most of each day, and seek Him in the process.